I can’t contact Brie Larson anymore.
It gets harder to accept how life goes for me.
I need a new sign of hope.
Any sign would do for me.
I composed two songs about Brie Larson recently
and they are “Just To Put Your Seat Next To Mine”
and “The Sorrow Of My Heart”
and I mourned and I wept
because I can read about Brie Larson,
yet I could never spend time with her.
She does mean a lot to me.
I mean a lot.
People can crack jokes about it all they want.
People can give me names because of it all they want.
Those things will never mend of the pain
that not getting to see her or protect her has caused me.
If I could I might go back in time
and move all the good moments from 2007-2015
back to 2004 rather than going to Youth Camp
which I do consider to be a mistake these days.
Back then I consider a building is where you met God,
yet you can reach God from anywhere at all,
yet sadly I can reach Brie Larson no where
not even right now when I yearn to so desperately.
I would do anything just to see her again
and get to know her and her get to know me for once
and not just for what her fans and her peers,
yet get to know me for me,no opinions,just the real me.
No games,no gimmicks,just the real me.
Why can’t we ever know each other for real for?
Will we ever get to know each for real?
If we can’t I’d rather not be on the earth anymore,
because it hurts to be on the same planet as her,
yet never get to see her ever in my life
and I am mourning over it right now.
I really am mourning over it because it hurts me
to the depths of my soul as far as feelings can go.
I can’t discuss this anymore.
Y’all got this so accept it please.
This day is very important to me
and it should be very important to you,
if you are an American like myself that is.
Years ago before this was known as Memorial Day,
setup as a holiday to pay tribute to anyone that has passed on,
it was a holiday setup just for the wounded soldiers
that fought for our country in the wars,
whether they be the Revolutionary War,
the Civil War,World War I,World War II
or the Vietnam War.
Still some do celebrate them even today.
Two of my ancestors was in two wars.
My ancestor William C. Long and the C. is short for Captain.
He was the Captain of the Revolutiobary Army
so remembering him is a big deal to me
because he fought to get us free
even when the monarchy lead Virginia Company
still owned Virginia and the colonies,
yet afterwards the 13 colonies were confederate and free.
Yes,I am very patriotic and I wouldn’t change a thing about it either.
It is American pride which is pride in America after all.
For me it is standing or it is sitting.
I can do either one when I do write songs,
yet do not always expect to get a song in a hour
composed and typed or wrote down because it won’t happen
unless the inspiration is there and the passion is there to do it.
I know about it because at times
I’d beat myself trying to compose the perfect song,
yet at times nothing would come.
Alright so exactly what does a songwriter do?
Does he just sit or stand in a room all day?
No,the songwriter does have a life,yet not everybody else.
Also the songwriter is also the storyteller
so they tell stories whether true or false.
What does a songwriter do when creating a song?
Well for me I will either sit or stand,
I will have a instrument and a pencil near by with some paper
then I’ll see which draws my attention,
yet it has to come from within or else it won’t work.
No,I am not implying no outside inspirations.
No,never,yet the source of the song is you in you,mostly.
Unless something beyond yourself draws you to do it like maybe God.
God inspired David to write The Book of Psalms.
Well that is what it takes to write a song.
Now aspiring songwriters go and do it or else it won’t get done.
I know that myself.
If I have a song on my mind and I don’t create it,it won’t be created.
I hate to put it that way
and the others who rape teenage girls
and others who rape teenage boys
are equally despicable.
This is moral decay.
Preserve yourselves for marriage you people.
Y’all make me lividly mad.
At 18 I was in high school,yet about had it completed.
I had finished P.E. in 2003 or 2004,
yet whichever one I can not imply.
I hated high school.
I was glad to put it behind me.
The whole get up early,go to school at 8:30
and leave school at 3:00 or my luck 3:30 or 4:00 was done.
That happened because of detention.
In fact my fondest memory of being 18
was seeing Brie Larson on the MACY’s Thanksgiving Day Parade
and everything else did not even compare to it.
Still I pressed on to get to know her somehow
which to my tries failed.
Her friends hate me because I do care about her,
yet they could care less how she does.
When people abused her they never said a word.
Still back on about the age of 18.
What did I do prior to it and stuff.
In March of 2005 I won my very first ever
Editor’s Choice Award from Poetry.com
for my self written poem “Life’s Journey,”
yet I earned no royalties at all
for having it published in their books
which I let them know was wrong.
They ripped so many people off royalty wise
which was a joke.
They sold thousands of books with me and others poetry work,
yet we didn’t earn a cent from anything.
I would have been smarter publishing the three poems
that won me the awards and withholding the other poems
because they earned me no income.
I am a successful poet already,yet no income to claim.
The same year I graduated from the Christian Academy
that I had attended since a decade prior in 1995
when I was only 8 years old.
At that time I was Hulkamaniac
that watched WCW Monday Nitro
like people who go to ministries do prayer meetings.
I watched it every week till it went off in 2001.
I also had a guitar and played guitar at the time.
Nobody understood my interest in
films,music,racing and sports,yet that was my interests.
I also liked game shows and the year prior in 1994
I watched The Family Channel religiously
years before it became Fox Family
which later it became ABC Family.
Still if I could have any of the three networks
it would be The Family Channel because it was about the family,
totally decent and totally ok for anybody to view.
I first watched Mary-Kate and Ashley Olson’s movie
“To Grandmother’s House We Go” and it was fun.
At the time I rented and watched a lot if their stuff.
I was a big fan of theirs at the time.
I also watched The Dukes of Hazard and The Waltons
on a weekly basis too.
It was a family affair too because my parents did it too.
Those two shows came on The Nashville Network
and back then I was a Country Music Junkie
and I would watch everything that came on too.
I watched the new live performances and music videos too.
I remember when my mom worked as a nurses assistant
that I stayed with her mom and she had it on CMT
and Clint Black’s music video for “State of Mind”
and how much fun that I had watching it.
This was back when all I played was cassettes,
played my guitar,didn’t have nobody’s contact info
and didn’t really enjoy school,but for the sports.
I had fun competing in hola hoop relax
and tug of war because I enjoyed sports.
Still music was my passion from birth.
I could not imagine my life without music
because it would seem to me like a picture without pixels,blank.
Days after I came home from being born
on the Saturday of the first week
my dad put on Alabama’s “Mountain Music”
and as the needle scratched the vinyl I was floored
and years later in 2009 I bought a Vinyl Record Turntablr.
I have my own Vinyl Records now,
both 33’s,45’s and 78’s.
78’s are the Vinyl Records that have like 8 songs on them.
One cool one is the Peter Pan one.
You can probably find it on Amazon or eBay.
I gtg everyone,yet thank you for reading my post.
I am preparing for tomorrow because it is a big day for me.
I am transitioning from one age to another age.
To me it feels like nothing,yet the date is something that I do treasure annually.
I cannot thank God enough for it and for the blessings that happen on it too.
All have a day of transitioning like this and it happens annually.